Saturday, June 13, 2015

Life's Darkest Moments Call Us To Be Strong

By Evan Sanders


You've got to love the game.

Without that love, you you are truly going to be wearing out the pavement unhappy step after unhappy step wishing you were doing something else. What's the point in that? That should be the absolute first indicator that you should be doing something different - if you dread going in to do the work.

Step into this moment.

You know, the moment where you grin while in the struggle, enjoy the agony, make fun of how difficult it is and challenge yourself to keep going. Some can be methodical about their targets and dreams but for me, I am acting like life is one big stage and there really is a grand orchestra behind me playing all different types of tunes.

I am, for the first time, dancing through life now. Some periods of time are slower, some much faster...but I am dancing nevertheless.

You always remember the folks that were there to give congratulations to you when you achieved your dream. Sadly, that is not always who you presumed it was meant to be. But that's ok. They'll turn out differently in many ways - occasionally for the better and infrequently for the worse. But that is life. That is how the cookie crumbles.

Each day I'm going a little bit further into attempting to be the person I want to be and bring out the good marks in myself that were hidden for such a considerable time. I am really learning. There are seldom days when I don't travel deep into the rabbit hole and search for things hidden deep within. I don't know if I may have it really any alternative way. Actually that journey has been going on for virtually 5 years now and it's impossible to believe that I can ever go back to the beginning... to that man before the man I am today. One thing I know for sure is that I haven't spent any time finding myself, but truly have spent almost all of my time making myself. I think there's a huge difference there.

It's constructing versus finding... because in all truth, I did not have anything to seek out and "find. " I had to drop everything I had learned to become and everything I believed I wanted to be to become the individual I had always dreamed of - not the individual society or others told me I should be...but who I knew I may become way down inside.

I make mistakes. Frequently I come off too robust or start pouring things out too early. But I don't run scared anymore. I used to - I once was scared of everything. Frightened of making mistakes...scared of myself...scared of losing...scared of abandonment...and I finally discovered ways to drop those one after the next because they turn your life really quikcly into nothing. They take everything out of you and there you are...just one huge ball of being frightened.

Our lives are a collection of interpretations of what is actually occuring in this moment. We bring with us stories and past events that shape what something means to us when it happens and that usually dictates how we act. If we are able to change that interpretation, we are able to change our whole world.

You have got to love the game.

This game of life. Without love...then what? What is the point if you don't love what you're doing?

One last thing - if you go hard in life and do everything rooted in love and passion, it should be damn tough to knock yourself when you cross the finish line, no matter the circumstances. Just keep that in the back of your mind for a while.

Screw up going 100%. Sure there willthere'll be incredible wipeouts, but you will recover and be on your merry way again.




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